posted on: Monday, June 3, 2013
With all the craziness in our lives right now [raising a little bundle, selling and packing a house, renovating a new house, and starting a company], it has definitely added several layers of stress on me. I know that it is often easy to look at bloggers out there that post all of the wonderful things, and as readers, we start to compare our lives and think, wow, why isn't my life that squeaky clean?!? Often as bloggers, we post about the highs in our life and glossy, pretty things. Because honestly, who really wants to hear and read about all the ugly, not so perfect things. And even more so, who really wants to share that information with the whole world, let alone a few close confidants. Well, I want you to know that I live a real life. There are more than enough wonderful things going on in my life for me to share with you, but also, do not forget that we all have our ups and downs, troubles, insecurities, etc. Life is a roller coaster and sometimes we are high and sometimes we are low. So rather than compare ourselves to other people whose lives "look" perfect, let's remember that we are all in the same game of life together. No one is perfect. And that is where we need Jesus.
I started tearing up in the car the other day [can I still blame it on the new mom hormones?!], listening to the words [and gorgeous voice] of Eric Church's song. This is how I want to [and should] love Casey and this is how he deserves to be loved. This is what, as a wife, I am called to do by the Lord. Honestly, this is how Casey loves me. And he always has. I am the one with all of the crazy dreams and and broken wings. It is easy for me to push my relationship to the wayside, while I focus my time and energy on other things. But really, he is the most important thing to me. And I want to do everything I can to make him feel that way. So to my sweet husband, this is my new motto. This is my song. My jam. And when I get selfish and start turning away from this, play this through the speakers. And I will hear it.
"Be kind. For everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."